today is what... like... 31 days i think. And being past midnight, I think I can say I've been tobacco free for a whole month now, and no cheating! Yippee.
what a worthless post this is or will be... no direction, just blah.
Well, guess i'll update for the heck of it.
I backed out of that Host position after being trained for it and doing it one day. Not my cup of tea. To use some words from my therapist, I think I'll continue to value being "low key". Nothing wrong with that right? I mean, like, if I were going around expressing myself all the time, I'd just be condensing potentialities into little points and such, and I'd be imperceptible to the Void.... and really, who needs that?
I keep 'not acting' tho, which I am unsure how I feel about. Like in this moment, I have a perfectly vague idea for a piece of artwork, and I'm sitting here typing instead of drawing. I may actually condense that idea into this blog soon, maybe, via that ArtRage 4 which I did purchase.
I'm not doing enough, me thinks, but then I question, what do I need to do? Such questions such as in the existence direction have I presently.
Well, I am so enjoying this vaping. Currently smoking Organic Naked Vanilla and Organic Kona Velvet Milkshake from virginvapor.com, which is all fine and good and stuffs. And I've just placed a new order for Mint Chocolate Chip and Peanut Butter Banana Sandwich also from virginvapor.com.
As finances go, I made a few phone calls, and the 2 debts i was saving for currently, just... simply... don't exist now. so. I took those funds that I had saved and pre-ordered a ps4. And I'm #lookingatthebrightside and I think preordering a ps4 is a better purchase than 4 kewl new watches, or some such logic was actually used there....
where am I anyway... why am I here?
at least I don't have any qualms about death after all this is said and done :)
so till next time,