Sunday, July 17, 2016

a general update

I'll try to keep this safe and sanitized, on this fine line I still walk on.

I need to rid myself of desires.

I need to take care of my health, spiritually, socially, mentally, and physically, properly.  I need to attend to my own overall well being, and stop seeking outside of my self to crutch my vices and weaknesses.

I need to return to meditation, in the morning and evening, for at least 10 minutes each.

I need to discipline myself to return and, to, at the very least, practice the warm-up sections of these dynamic exercises, ideally, every day, at least once.

I need to be more aware and involved with my nutrient intake, my diet's natural rhythm.

A noted worthy recent update, in these regards.  This is the best dietary/vitamin upgrade I've come across recently, in my perceptions, thus I must remember to supply my system with this intake, each and every day, preferably in the morning:  I believe they are referred to as probiotics, if I'm not mistaken.  (That is the site I ordered them from, as well, and I added an ice/freezer pack for a couple extra bucks, to accompany their shipping.)

What else.  Well, I could use a prayer or two, if you are inspired for such things.

Thank you for your time.

And let there be ~peace.

[EDIT] - regarding desires, I am aware on some level, that desires are a natural component to biological life.  I cannot speak apart from the biological aspect, in these matters, at least at this time.  In essence, I feel (tho I am not certain on my highest verdict on this) that 'ridding' myself of desires, would be a component, to perhaps, refining my desires, and limiting my energy leakage, probably in more aspects than one.  Thank you for your time.

Tuesday, July 12, 2016


there is this and that...

and tea ...

... and a new phone

... and a new number ...

and colors.  never forget the colors.

and ~peace, let there always be peace.

Sunday, July 10, 2016

artistic attractions #1

This is like a 'statement of intent' type post/purpose:

I pray I return to water colors and inclinations like these, in future days.

This is old, but I like it, and I'd not only like to return to water colors again as inspiration strikes, I'd as well like to return to my artistic depictions of what I like.  Female beauty.  I let my typing get the better of me sometimes, but hopefully, I've intended myself in a proper direction for this new thread.  ;)

What shall be my next muse, I wonder.  Now that's worthy of pondering!

~peaceful Sunday and such

Saturday, July 9, 2016

reflections and observations #5

i've been thinking this was too rich to share.  but i'll put it out there nonetheless now

as well:
"We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time."
-T. S. Eliot

man, some powerful ones this time~

~peace, nonetheless
We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.
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Friday, July 8, 2016

upgrades for refinery #9

I conclude I'm just too adept to my life situation, with tools such as YNAB, omg, is this a good thing, I wonder?

I posted earlier, if I quit cigs, I can afford myself a cell phone upgrade.  Well, I made it yesterday, Thursday (day 0, as I thought it), without any tobacco.  Of course today was the moment of truth, as it is my pay day.  So I drew open my YNAB software, crunched all my dollar and cents numbers, and it turns out I can afford myself that cell phone, and also afford my nicotine habit, even considering these American Spirit branded (natural/organic) cigarettes are a bit on the expensive side.

So I'm supporting organic farmers (at least the tobacco growing ones), AND I remembered to use the when placing my cell phone order!  (the 'smile' is for some sort of charity or another, which I normally forget to use  :| )

Well, the cell phone is on pre-order, as it releases July 12th, but amazon rocks, so I get release date delivery on the 12th along with free shipping  :)  (yes, amazon Prime still proves worth the price of admission, imo)  I'm upgrading from an old (I think 1st gen, but not certain) Motorola Moto G into a newer model, the 4th gen Motorola Moto G.  The normal price is like 199.99, but as a prime member, the price lists as 149.99.  Of course, my penny pinching, deal finding friend quoted me as a 124.99 price on amazon/prime if you agree to having ads display on the phone's lock screen.  Yes, upon adding to cart and ordering, the price indeed showed as 124.99.  so I nabbed the phone as well as a case, for a total of 140.98, with an additional 50 budgeted for activating and first month/service.  I plan to take it to a sprint location when it arrives on Tuesday, changing from Boost Mobile service to Sprint (altho boost uses the sprint network as is, I believe).

I'm excited, my 8gb limited storage on my current phone will  bump up to 16gb, as well as having a microsd slot!  (tgtbt  :) )

So I have an option to attempt another go at quitting cigs, making my life more comfortable with a healthier spending money allowance, maybe i'll try this weekend.  (as goes the thought, if I make it all weekend (2 days) with no smoking, I'd probably have a better chance at starting Monday/week smoke free).

Finally, ex and step left on a plane yesterday to start their new life/lives in California style.  And my spaces have found a new pace.  So, I'll work today, and this weekend I hope to spend tidying and cleaning, cutting grass, essentially, taking care of my environment!!!!!  I'm excited about cleaning, so it could be worse, but I dunno about better, at this point  :x.

How did I write so much this morning.  hmm, perhaps its this energy drink my mom surprised me with yesterday.  I do like gifts tho.  hehe

Alrighty then, have a ~peaceful Friday peeps!  Lets get to that weekend already  ;)

Monday, July 4, 2016

reflections and observations #4

Something like a description of this time/space in my perceptions...

essentially, i'm finding myself back at square one, yet again.  but from a continuous path that led here from the last [square one].  summarily, i just have to do some tweaking, a bit of finessing, and get myself back on track.  hopefully, ex and step will finally move out this wednesday  :x  (nuh, i did say that?)  been like a week now, and its cramping my style  :/

i don't wanna brag, but i've been through hell, at times digging deeper into the pits, when [work] needed doing.  cigs aren't the least of what needs fixing.  more like the first needing attention, so, that's now my stated intention, arh!

i guess in essence, i gotta rehabilitate my physical self.  be mindful of my spiritual health.  and have some bloody fun in the process, for criminy's sake.

what else.  well this is what i'm working with atm, regarding the cigarette issue.  if I quit right now, i can upgrade my aged cell phone.  motivation ftw!

alright then, ~~peace be with ya

Sunday, July 3, 2016

passive consumptions #1

Time is a funny thing.  But lately, its changing its character from idle wastes-of-space/ depressions, into opportunities for enjoying [things].  I'm most excited to embark into my next phase of life, with this in mind.  So, a new thread, for passive consumptions.  I'm thinking this to be media such as movies, TV, books, and suchnesses like that.  So, with this in mind, up first is the following that I'll see about embarking on, which is only one item from my intriguing back catalog  :D  :

I'm roughly thinking a 2 weeks span, but that is entirely a rough guess, seeing as time is changing itself, as far as I can perceive.

oh and ~Peace too  :)