Friday, September 23, 2016

upgrades for refinery #11

I resist guilt for these upgrades.  I'm keeping the items smaller, and hopefully I'll be able to stray away from my past 'future-proofing' habits of the big ticket items, more so.  So let's see, where should I start in this ~catch-up type post...

How about here:

These two items have a specific purpose obviously, and they are serving their purpose very well so far.  I should have taken steps in this direction a ways back, but whatever.  Essentially, I've lived my life a mouth-breather, and I've always hated not being able to breath through my nose.  Such a futile struggle I fought, without taking some proper intelligible steps, until now...  So.  This past week, I've begun to employ these upgrades, and trying on a new guise, in these regards.  And I'm enjoying the ability very much so.

There is a notable advantage I'm taking advantage of already, which is allowing the tip of the tongue to rest in contact with the palate/roof of mouth.  This is a 'gate' in the Taoist realms that connects the functional and governor meridians (a path in the back / spine and a path in the front / involving organs and such), the lower 'gate', as it were, being the perineum.  What does this mean, well, it means I'm now able to approach day to day reality, with my meditative states more easily at hand.  And this is a good thing, in my opinion.

Hmmm, so what upgrade next, yar.  Let's see...

Another knife?  I must be returning to my past spending habits, ACK!  But "nay," I say, this too has purpose.  It's a double edge, which carries with it, my powers of focus and achievements with such devices.  And its more discrete than my latest 'good' pair of knives.  Thus, I am adding this, so far, to my at home casual attire.  This is to be around the house, inside, and out, as I deem ready.  This may be all the 'action' required to assert the 'double edged' aspect of my being into reality (the pattern, as I interpret it), although I am adaptable, tho I short-sight myself in these regards, at this point.  So casual at home wear, is this upgrade...

And more?  Yes, I've been essentially busy, I suppose.

I added some more adapted items to my home free time, which is having the noted effect of turning a lot of my free time at home into a training state of mind.  I won't snap pics of these, but I'll include a link if you want to check these upgrades out.  First up is a pair of Thai Fisherman Pants, which turn out to be absolutely fantastic in practice.  Mindset, roominess, there's a lot of subtleties to them for me.  So I'm happy about this upgrade.  And next, is a pair of shoes adapted well enough, as well, to a practice mindset, and are turning out to perform very well for their desired purpose.

The belt, I think I at least alluded to previously. I guess I'll link if for giggles  :P  I've come to like this Dickie's brand for the utility/functionality and the belts do not disappoint.  So the new belt is sized 36, has 7 holes, and upon checking earlier this evening, I was/am using the 4th/middle hole.  Older belts I have hanging in my closet are sized 42, 40, and 38, I suppose you could have guessed perhaps  :).  Yay for numbers, ya ?

Uhh, more? hmm...

I've been having quotes, from having read this back in college, flittering through my head for weeks now, and I knew exactly where these words originated from, so I was obviously drawn to owning another copy of this much beloved book again.  And so it is so.  Still love it, though I am appreciating it at different depths this time around, which is just beautiful! :)

An added blurb regarding this qigong book:  I've mentioned this book to a co-worker from my job, and further let her hold it and leaf through it, so after I finish this read-through, it'll be on loan to her, which I think is a win-win situation thing here.  YAY BOOKS  :D

And yes, another!  :)

Ironic, the highest regarded mentor I've encountered in my life considers himself of the Buddhist persuasion, and I've made it thus far without a serious inquiry in these matters.  So, this would be my intended foot in that door, and so far, I am enjoying it, but I don't feel like I've gotten to the meaty parts yet, unless its just wonderfully subtle like that with it's own inherent buddha-nature  ;)

Oh golly gee, what I am I getting myself into with this next item?  :x

"Leave no stone unturned" ?  Uhhh, mmm k.  I'm sort of saving opinions / ideas on this, but I'm curious how they approach the subjects of meditation, qigong, and their martial artist bents.  We shall see, yes.

Oh for the love of trees~~

 I do love trees, tho, and I love the current iteration of my ebook reader, which is the Nook GlowLight Plus.  I'd recommend it, I think.  I started on the nook side of readers, because right out the gate, they supported the 'epub' format, which for some reason, was my deciding factor.  The body/back is metal on this iteration, which doesn't have good grip, so I'd recommend a case like the foto'd solution.
I do ramble tho, here's a shot with the title being at the top of the page:  "The Three Ways of Tao: The Peaceful Warrior".  I think I recall this started in the Italian language, and from my recollections, I did not find the english version in physical form, but I don't mind it as digital (tho illustrations suck  :( ).  In any case, this book is effectively blowing my mind.  But in a totally good and connected way.  Good stuffs, ya'lls  :)

 Dear, sheese, let  that be the end ?  I really shouldn't procrastinate these posts/updates.  I do apologize, but I do have one more noteworthy upgrade.  :x

An interval timer, as they are called.  Of all the noted upgrades in this post, I consider this one to be most expensive, all things considered.  I'm brainstorming uses for it, but I can say, it is succeeding at improving my meditation sessions so far, as no more venturing a glance at my watch.  It allows for beeps, with two volume settings, as well as a vibration option.  So far, no complaints.

Sorry for the long post.  I'll try to be more diligent about sharing what I deem shareable in a more timely and slimmed down fashion.

But either way, till next time, ~peace be with ya  :)

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

health update #8

Woo-blah, guess it's as good a time as any, for another one of [these] posts.  I'll just start with a weigh-in then:

Bloody 210 lbs and in only 'workout' attire.  Shameful, as looking back at 'health update #7' on June 25 in full 'casual weekend get-up' was 211 lbs.  Well, I could argue that I'm converting fat to muscle, but blast, whatever, it's frustrating...

This tower 'opponent' has struck a low blow, as I just received a new 'upgrade' today for my fight towards a pull-up.  I saw it coming, but, well, not really, not like reality setting in today.  Here's the dang upgrade, and its pretty wicked:

I am not ready, not for this  :/.  Cigarettes just aren't gonna fly for this new toy, and that presents an issue.  I just now drowned/destroyed the last 9 cigarettes I had on hand.  I've destroyed plenty of cigarettes in my never ending plight, so I'm not banking on my resolve just yet...  which is sort of disheartening to me right now.  In any case, I have to put up some sort of effort, ya?

So I'm setting new intentions into my routine, as I'll state here, be it the death of me, or not.
Intents, for daily, I share:
     1) Meditate and some extent of Tai Chi practice and/or study, ideally twice per day
     2) Engage tower to some extent
     3) Engage pushup bars sufficiently
     4) Engage this wicked rope thing

Geeze, this is gonna kill me, if I stick it out, I swear :x.  Along with taking care of my health aspects, I need also to clean the house completely, at least every area accessible and possibly interpreted as part of my living space.  And be humble about letting this simply be 'setting a good example' and continuing to clean up after...  well, after cleaning the house completely, yes?

Oh dear, this fight is formidable ahead of me...  Some lighter news:  I have to order a smaller belt, as I've reached the last hole of my current size.  This new belt will be the 4th belt, in their 'declination' existence, so, well, that's [something].  I suppose I could drop 2 sizes instead, but that wouldn't be as fun, ya know  :P.

Well, as I should say, I suppose, ~peace...

currents #1

A new thread I guess.  This is to be casual I think, regarding to everyday things (EDC and such).  For today, I feel like sharing the books I am casually perusing and carrying in my everyday book bag.  So here they are:

 My therapist actually knows of this, and was impressed when I showed him my bagged books last Friday.  (This is my second copy, if I am not mistaken.)

 This has been around the block and is my first and only copy I've owned.  Definitely deserving of more attention.

And what's to say of this.  "Edumicate me, Sun Tzu..."

What else?  Keep up that ~peace y'allz...

Saturday, September 10, 2016

snippet #3

So many years since I enveloped taoistic interpretations onto paper.  I ought return and I already have planned intentions of an approach.  In any case, I thought I'd share a simplified example of a snippet of getting to know Tao in my earlier years.  Hope this translates well for you:

And a more legible version of ch3:


Do not exalt the very gifted,
     And people will not contend.
Do not treasure goods that are hard to get,
     And people will not become thieves.
Do not focus on desires,
     And people's minds will not be confused.

Therefore, Evolved Individuals lead others by
     Opening their minds,
     Reinforcing their centers,
     Relaxing their desires,
     Strengthening their characters.

Let the people always act without strategy or desire;
     Let the clever not venture to act.
Act without action,
     And nothing is without order.
~translation by R.L. Wing

Chapter 6 appears legible enough I think.  Anyway, just a tangible example of reduction by simplicity.

In other news, I hope to take care of completing the task of cleaning the 'dining room' today.  And I was thinking to put my T'ai Chi Ch'uan studies on the back burner for a time, but my therapist told me yesterday that it's probably a good idea to keep involved with that practice, even with so much on my plate.  So.  I'm planning on resuming practice/study of that form at some point today.

I'm also starting to get into video games, which is nice and timely.  I'm generally happy about this  :)  I think so far, I've been primarily enjoying an SRPG on ps3, "Record of Agarest:  War Zero".  I'm also planning to start a first person dungeon crawler, in this case on PSTV (vita game).  I'm gonna attempt this one to be "Demon Gaze".  If that doesn't engage enough, I have a fallback I may mention if it comes to that.  Not sure what I may undertake with my Desktop.  I think probably a boring point-and-click adventure game:  I'm thinking the anniversary edition of Gabriel Knight: Sins of the Fathers.  I played through its sequel a long time ago "The Beast Within", so I'd like to play the first story in the series.

Anyways, where does the time go.  Don't worry, I'll be returning to the ~peace's for now.  So take care peepz.


Sunday, September 4, 2016

reflections and observations #7

This is not so much a recent reflection, unless I observe something new during this post, as much as it is sharing how my process may operate.  Firstly, I'll refresh my path's logic form, as I have applied it to my life:

1 2 3 4 7 14 21 28
1 6 28
1 5

I attached corresponding Tao Te Ching chapters to each number, and when I needed to center / ground myself, I would read them in that order.  I'll share one chapter of this path as it has come into my awareness this morning:


Know the male,
     Hold to the female;
          Become the world's stream.
By being the world's stream,
     The Power will never leave.
          This is returning to Infancy.

Know the white,
     Hold to the black;
          Become the world's pattern,
By becoming the world's pattern,
     The Power will never falter.
          This is returning to Limitlessness.

Know the glory,
     Hold to the obscurity;
          Become the world's valley.
By being the world's valley,
     The Power will be sufficient.
          This is returning to Simplicity.

When Simplicity is broken up,
It is made into instruments.
Evolved Individuals who employ them,
Are made into leaders.
In this way the Great System is united.
-Translation by R.L. Wing

I have employed various aspects of this particular passage at times as applicable.   For the most obvious part of this post, I did use it as to become the world's pattern.  I employed psychological and spiritual (religious tones initially) angles to efface my person, as I had known him to be.  An example of this, would be to inwardly become the most dispicable person I could become, as well as the most divine.  For example, I did place myself into the shoes of the anti-christ, as well as the shoes of Jesus, for the purposes of this self effacement, as of at the time, my spiritual background consisted of Christianity.  Having experienced all the dark/light aspects of my potential being, as were proposed in my awareness, I picked up the pieces and approached my path with Tao and facing my shadow, essentially, a process of mastering my inward self.

Now I am in a transitory phase, as I perceive it, in the evolution of [my] life.  I must not be relinquishing the person I have become;  chances are, I've been through worse already.  I've been a broken/lost soul already.  I did start again, and survive.  I think withdrawing some of my energies would be a wise maneuver at this juncture.  Subtly as it were, as the line I walk is part of parcel part of the world's pattern at this point.  I intend to use that aspect of my path as a tool, to be employed or overlooked, as I may be inspired to do so.

What else...  hmmm...   "too much talk will exhaust itself...  it is better to remain centered..." [ch5, Tao Te Ching, HOLDING TO THE CENTER]

But ya know, I'm tired of the ~peace inclusions... maybe i'll nix those...

Saturday, September 3, 2016

upgrades for refinery #10

Well, I'm on my way to a pull-up, but I'm still fighting my damnedest against the bloody tower.  So this is my strategy I'm gonna seek to employ to keep up my tobacco pass-time.

First is a cigarette case, with some thinking involved.  It ought keep me in the right mindset, of the importance of each cigarette I smoke, respecting the damage they do, and respecting each one a bit more.  Here's some pics of the outside of the case:



Seemed a good choice, as far as amazon choices go.  About 7 bucks, from my cigarette funds...

My goal for these upgrades is to cut my smoking down to half a pack a day, at this point.  Yes, that is my stated intention as of now...  It'll prolly be just as hard as quitting cigs outright, but that's my plan.  ARG!

These are the cigarettes that I'd like to use with my goal of 10 cigs/day:
These are additive free.  Ingredients being 'organic tobacco' and 'organic menthol', as claimed at least, and these are the 'lite' variety.

Finally I'm gonna see about filtering them another step with the following filters:
a pack of 100 for something over 20 bux.  one filter is supposedly good for 10 cigs, so they fit with my plan/goal, I think.

Thus, my daily allowance should (hopefully VERY SOON) appear as the following:
Neat little package, imo.  I sure hope it helps my situation tho!!!

One other item of import that should arrive this Tuesday I think is this butt pouch, so I can refrain from littering.  Previously, I just shoved the spent butts back into the box, which I don't wanna do with my new setup...

Alright, so I dunno.  In my new relationship with this 'power tower' adversary, not exactly sure if this is fight or flight, or maybe something in between.  No matter, I got some cleaning to do today.

so ~peace out y'allz...